It's almost 2 years since we enter college life. We have no time to see each other and with our other former classmates. I miss you so much, our bondings and our happy moments together. You know, I was so glad being with you. Everytime I am besides you, I can't stop myself to smile, even your jokes are so corny still, I can't stop to laugh. I don't see it as a trite because you make me crack up. When you need something, I give it hastily to you because I want that I will be the one who will make you grin. My day willl be complete when I see you just smiling. With your one smile it makes my heart shines. I hate the way you talk because it makes my heart beats faster. I hate the way you sit besides me because you make my whole world stops for a while and I hate this feeling. I don't know what to do when I just see you coming towards me. I don't understand why, why I feel this way maybe, I am just afraid to say, that I am in love with you every single of the day.
I kept this feeling for almost 6 years. Maybe you are shock but it's true and now, I can't take it any longer. I can't handle it anymore, I want to take it outside and I want you to know this. This feeling starts when we are just in elementary. I was so attracted by your appearance because you are tall and handsome. I feel the fire burning inside my heart or what you call love at first sight and gradually I discover that you are kind and smart as if all the characteristics of my ideal man is in you. And the time passed, I just ignore this feeling because I know it will lost and it is just a crush, a simple crush and it will not go deeply but I was wrong because everytime I see you in school, being you as my partner in our school activities, my feelings go deeper and deeper. I try to put a gap between us because I don't want this feeling. I try to stop this feeling but I can't!
You know why I don't want this feeling because I know you are just treating me as your friend and you will never love me back as I love you more. I am afraid to feel hurt. I am afraid you will just ignore me and just say, "Ok"!
I feel hurt when you are with somebody , laughing together! I feel jealous but I realized I have no right to feel this way because I am just your friend, loving you silently. But now, that you know all this, I don't care if you will ignore this, but what important is, I confessed my feelings. Thank you for giving time to read this letter and whatever your reaction is, whatever the feeling you are feeling right now, I hope nothing change and we are still friends.
Love,
Diana
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